Trans model and actress Hari Nef live-tweeted her tracheal shave procedure and it’s so real

By Anadefillo

August 12, 2016

By Anadefillo

August 12, 2016

Hari Nef, transgender model and actress, live tweeted her tracheal shave on Thursday through a series of excited, hilarious, and contemplative posts.

my surgeon really gagged me today when he said that all facial cosmetic surgery is facial feminization. or pretty much all of it. i screamed

— hari nef (@harinef) August 10, 2016

The 22-year-old revealed some of her complicated feelings towards wanting and getting the surgery. In one of the tweets, Nef reflected, “i’m really happy i got my eve’s apple removed but it still makes me sad that i was never made to feel feminine-looking enough when i had it.”

In a recent must-read Teen Vogue interview with Orange is The New Black actress and activist, Laverne Cox, Nef expressed similar thoughts.

blasting "celebrity skin" in the car on the way to my tracheal shave

— hari nef (@harinef) August 11, 2016

🤘🏻🤘🏻🤘🏻🤘🏻🤘🏻 see y'all in a sec pic.twitter.com/fKbUCf958Q

— hari nef (@harinef) August 11, 2016

In a 2015 Vogue.com interview, Nef explained why she didn’t want to hide her transition, “I could have hid in Boston and lived at home for three years … gone through my transition, taken voice lessons to make my voice more feminine, gotten gender reassignment surgery, and spent time to complete my transition before I made my debut in fashion or film, but I didn’t want to wait!” She continued, “I wanted to be in the world. I’m not trying to self-aggrandize, but it’s more than a job to me. It is political.”

pic.twitter.com/OITd4h14Zq

— hari nef (@harinef) August 11, 2016

wow. no more adam's apple. i wonder if i'll still wear the choker

— hari nef (@harinef) August 11, 2016

i can't wait to wear cute metal chokers that were too painful to wear before

— hari nef (@harinef) August 11, 2016

i'm over here like adam who? apple…quién. where's eve? she has the apple sis

— hari nef (@harinef) August 11, 2016

Post-surgery, Nef got real.

that apple was like the one thing i would always be 😞 about catching myself in the mirror or photos. trans is beautiful but also pointy

— hari nef (@harinef) August 11, 2016

after a while i realized only certain kinds of people noticed my adam's apple 1. people trying to clock me 2. me (who am often #1)

— hari nef (@harinef) August 11, 2016

i facetuned it out of most instagrams. sometimes i would bring it up to photographers on set asking them to retouch it. i'm glad that's done

— hari nef (@harinef) August 11, 2016

i'm really happy i got my eve's apple removed but it still makes me sad that i was never made to feel feminine-looking enough when i had it

— hari nef (@harinef) August 11, 2016

the gag is i will probably still get clocked. i still won't like my body every day or even very much at all. but this was a cool step lol

— hari nef (@harinef) August 11, 2016

Thanks for sharing this moment with us, Hari. Hope you get some Hulu and chill and we can’t wait to see all your cute new metal chokers.