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After months of (not so) patiently waiting, Negan’s victim was finally revealed during the first few seconds halfway through the Season 7 premiere of The Walking Dead. Though we had literally months to prepare for the heartbreaking moment — and you should know that yes, there are spoilers ahead — there’s still no way we’re ever going to get over the the loss of not one, but two main cast members. While we’re still in shock, Abraham and Glenn aren’t as in as much shock as they could be, because they’ve actually known about this for almost a YEAR.

A year!! We’ve barely known for 24 hours and we’re wondering who we can even continue on with the rest of this week!

Following the episode, Michael Cudlitz, who played Abraham, spoke with reporters about the episode, and confessed that they actually shot this big Negan + Lucille scene while they were filming the Season 6 finale.

“We finished [Season 6] just before Thanksgiving [2015], Cudlitz confessed. I’ve been sitting with it, Steven [Yenn’s] sitting with it, and the rest of the cast for a year now.”

And just how to do convince an entire PLANET that you don’t know the identity of Negan’s victim? Simple! Just lie to the whole WORLD about it.

Okay, fine, yes we totally understand the need for everyone to tell some little lies to keep a huge reveal from slipping out. It’s also damn impressive that The Walking Dead was able to keep it so under wraps for a year.

And now, you know, we’re going to need a solid year to recover from it.