Anna Sheffer
Updated July 10, 2019

Since Mac Miller’s death in September 2018, Ariana Grande has shared memories of her late ex-boyfriend on social media and paid tribute to him during her Sweetener World Tour. She has even alluded to Miller’s death in her music, such as in the song “Ghostin’.” Understandably, Grande has mostly refrained from talking about Miller and his death, but recently, she got candid about the side of their relationship that the public didn’t see.

Grande appears on the cover of the August issue of Vogue (along with her dog Toulouse), and in the accompanying story, she discusses Miller and his death, as well as the music she wrote after his passing. She also addressed a moment after she and Miller broke up, when one of Miller’s fans blamed her for the rapper’s DUI. At the time, Grande called the accusation “absurd” and noted that “shaming/blaming women for a man’s inability to keep his shit together is a very major problem.” Speaking to Vogue, Grande elaborated on her response and the work that she had put into her relationship.

The pop star described her grief after Miller’s death as “pretty all-encompassing.”

She also discussed the way that writing Thank U, Next helped her heal after Miller’s death. She told Vogue that she finds “solace” in music and noted that the album represented “the first year of my life where I’m realizing that I can no longer put off spending time with myself, just as me.”

With everything that Grande has been through in the past year, we hope that she is taking time to heal.