Although Ariana Grande has had an incredible couple of years career-wise, she has also endured a staggering amount of trauma and loss in that same time. Two years ago, a terrorist bombed the Manchester Arena during one of her performances, and in September 2018, her ex-boyfriend Mac Miller passed away. With everything that Grande has experienced, her Sweetener World Tour has been understandably emotional, and she has cried on stage several times, usually while singing about Miller. Recently, the pop star shared (and later deleted) a statement about the feelings that she is still processing.

Grande opened up in a since-deleted Instagram post, which several fans captured in screenshots. The “7 Rings” singer wrote, “Tour is wild. Life is wild,” before saying she was grateful for everything she has experienced on the road and all the people who have helped her.

She continued:

Grande shared her statement after her July 7th performance, during which she got choked up while singing “R.E.M.” Fans shared videos of the moment on Twitter, and many worried about her emotional and mental health.

At the end of the day, Grande is only human, and she deserves the space and time to process her emotions in a way that is comfortable for her. We hope she’s finding time for herself, and we’re sending so much love her way.