Just three weeks before the Victoria’s Secret Fashion Show in Paris back in November, Bella Hadid and The Weeknd broke up. As far as the public could tell, she seemed to be in good spirits and coping pretty well, given the circumstances (she walked in the show while The Weeknd performed).

The Victoria’s Secret Fashion Show was obviously a hugely publicized event, so Hadid probably felt like she needed to put on a strong face so people would assume she was fine. Because talking about a tough breakup RIGHT after it happens isn’t anyone’s idea of a good time.

Hadid even posted an Instagram photo where she calls out The Weeknd (AKA Abel Tesfaye) for being so incredible. She wrote,

Since Hadid is just like anyone else going through heartbreak, her social media didn’t paint the full picture of how she was really feeling.

And that’s totally fine. She doesn’t owe an explanation to anyone. But she did admit to Teen Voguethat she is still hurting more than she has let on.

But her respect and love for her ex is unwavering.

“I’ll always respect him, and I’ll always love him,” she said. “Sometimes you want to be sad about it or handle it differently, but at the end of the day, you never want to burn a bridge that you’ve fought so hard to build.”

We hope her heart continues to heal.