Why I started writing down my accomplishments
Last Friday, I embarked on a difficult journey. I left everyone I love behind in New York, hopped on a plane for the very first time, moved across the country to Los Angeles, and have temporarily been living in someone else’s RV (a long story for another time).
It hasn’t even been a week since I moved and I’ve already experienced every feeling on the emotional spectrum. I’ve felt excited, loved, supported, empowered. I’ve felt homesick, sad, anxious, overwhelmed. Along the way, I’ve faced setbacks that unexpectedly made me angry, frustrated, disappointed in myself.
Yet, no matter the emotion, I’ve found a form of salvation: writing down my accomplishments.
Before I tell you why I’ve begun recording my achievements, you should know one thing about me: 1) I am very hard on myself and don’t often make room for a sense of pride.
The characteristic I listed above often produces a tsunami of anxiety within my soul. I’ve long been aware of this and, before I moved, I realized that this trait would hinder me – but only if I let it. I understood that, no matter how difficult the journey, the real challenge would be conquering my own insecurities.
That’s when I began another journey, an inner expedition, one that would parallel my physical voyage across the U.S. The only rule: take a moment to acknowledge all that I’ve accomplished – no matter how silly or trivial or seemingly insignificant these acts may seem.
Whenever I feel even a shade of negativity making its way across the horizon of my being, I stop everything. No matter where I am, I press PAUSE on life. I grab a writing utensil and a scrap of something. If my phone or laptop are nearby, all tabs are closed and my Notes app is opened. I then devote several minutes to loving myself, to writing down everything I’ve accomplished in the last five minutes, in the last hour, the last day, the last week, the last month.
I write down my accomplishments because, though life can be scary, I’m doing my best.
I write down my accomplishments because I deserve to see how far I’ve come.
I write down my accomplishments because I’m learning to love myself.
And once you start writing down your accomplishments, little by little, you won’t want to stop. Because taking a moment to say I DID IT and I’VE GOT THIS and I’M GOING TO BE OKAY is sometimes all you need to see that you’re a warrior.