Kelly Clarkson said she was desperately unhappy when she was at her thinnest

Most of us have struggled with our bodies: We feel pressure from the media and sometimes from our peers and family to look a certain way. But, luckily, many of our jobs don’t depend on what we look like. This wasn’t the case for Kelly Clarkson, who says she was extremely unhappy at a certain point when the body pressure was too great.

The Grammy-award-winning singer told Attitude magazine that she was at a very low point, regardless of her professional success.

"I wanted to kill myself," she said. "I was miserable, like inside and out, for four years of my life. But no one cared, because aesthetically you make sense."

She continued:

“It was a very dark time for me. I thought the only way out was quitting. I like wrecked my knees and my feet because all I would do is put in headphones and run. I was at the gym all the time."

Luckily, she came out on the other side. One thing that helped her find her footing again? Music. “There’s a song on My December called ‘Sober.’ There’s this line ‘picked the weeds but kept the flowers’ and I just live my life by that because you are who you surround yourself with.”

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This isn’t the first time Clarkson has talked about body image. She told Redbook in 2015 that while she wishes her metabolism was faster, she is appreciative for all of the other things she has — like an infectious personality (not to mention, a KILLER singing voice, girl).

“I don’t obsess about my weight,” she continued in the Redbook interview. “Which is probably one of the reasons why other people have such a problem with it.

Keep rocking on, Kelly. We love your honesty, that you’re in such a good place now, and that you’re beautiful inside and out.

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