Music and My Feels: I Can Only Express Myself Through Song Maria A Hernandez

I have issues expressing my emotions. There, I said it. My, ugh, feelings, are there, but I can’t say what they actually are (it’s weird, I know). The only exception is when I’m irritated. If I am annoyed… good grief, you will know it. It’s the one emotion that I wish I could mask, but I can’t, so it is what it is.

Otherwise, I am stone cold marble. It’s a problem. Emotions make you vulnerable and being vulnerable is a way of losing control. I do not like not being in control. It’s a twisted way to think about things. There are a select few people in my life that get to see me let down that wall, but they’re like… two.

I have a game face like no one’s business. OH, you just broke my heart? You will never know.

It’s not like I don’t feel feelings, although, God, I wish I didn’t most of the time. I just never know how articulate them. Ever. That’s where music really helps me out. Have you ever been going through something and then there’s that one song that gets it? It’s really teenager-y of me considering I’m a grown-ass adult of 23 years.

For me, music is an outlet where someone else is expressing my emotions for me and, it’s damn therapeutic. Almost as cathartic as having a good cry.

And let’s face it, there are very few things that are as a good as an all-out sob-fest.

I have two preferred methods of listening to my music:

1. In my car. There I am traveling along in my little bubble of music through the streets (while abiding by traffic laws, of course) and just jamming out to my songs.

2. In my bed, in the dark. Headphones in. (How moody of me.)

Essentially, it breaks down to any situation where I’m by myself and I can really connect (how emo of me) to the music. I just need it, ya know? Every time I try to explain this to someone, I think they automatically go to that SNL skit with Emma Stone where she’s crying to ‘Someone Like You’ by Adele (no shame, we’ve all done that). And yes, while that has, on occasion, been the case, a lot of the time I’m listening to music because I’m happy or because I’m excited. There’s a plethora of reasons why I use music to express my emotions.

Music is a great way to work through both the dark and the light sides of our emotions. For me, I just go all over the place with it. I truly believe that music is fantastic for happiness and emotional trauma alike.

I know that everyone uses music in similar ways, but for me it’s especially useful because, like I said, I’m not very good at saying, much less discussing, what I feel.

So, what do you guys listen to when you’re happy? Sad? Angry?

Let me know! I need some new music, and I know my fellow HelloGigglers have excellent taste.

(I’m really into Beyonce’s music right now. Girl power.)

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  1. I’m more into older music sooo when I feel the need to start start over or for a change : This is the day by The The, When I’m down in the dumps and need another kick further down: Possibility by Lykke. But my all time go to favorite music for mostly every situation is anything by The Cure. BTW love your tumbler page, check it every day stalker status (not really, but yes really)

  2. Awwwww! So glad you guys could relate to what I was trying to say! :)

    Right now, I’m listening to ‘Halo’ by my girl, Queen B, ‘At Last I See the Light’ from Tangled, ‘No Church in the Wild’ by Jay-Z and ‘Ye. Ooooh! And let me not forget my adoration for ‘Untouchable’ and ‘Red’ by T. Swift. One of my all-time favorite songs is ‘This Love Will be Your Downfall’ by Ellie Goulding. She is so good.

    Ah! I could go on and on!

    Again, thank you guys so much for liking the article! <3

  3. I LOVE your article! for me, it’s like this: if I’m sad, I like to listen to sad or, at least, peaceful songs, if I’m happy, happy or some ‘to-dance’ rock songs.
    Sad: ‘Landlocked Blues’ by Bright Eyes; ‘Just Breathe’, by Pearl Jam; ‘Sonnet’ by The Verve; ‘Sentimental’ by Los Hermanos.
    Happy/to dance: ‘Alive’, by Pearl Jam; ‘This Charming Man’ by The Smiths; ‘You shook me all night long’, by AC/DC; ‘Parklife’ by Blur.

  4. Music is powerful

  5. i truly believe that music rules the world and a voice is the most powerful instument! the thing is that music let us feel loose because it fills our life with emotions which help us explode and this, oh my, feels amazing!
    sometimes i cry for no reason when i listen to a song and at that moment i feel alive… when i sing there’s another side of me which is kinda screaming)
    right now i’m into Journey as well as into some a capella singing especially due to my admiration by Pentatonix and the Pitch Perfect movie!
    P.S. don’t stop believing)))

  6. I feel like I wrote this wonderful post myself! I am the exact same way!! Music gets me through everything.

    I am also in a Beyonce mood right now! I have her on constant repeat, so much that my friends have asked me to please get a new playlist! But you know, whatever, I am so playing Beyonce on repeat until I see her Mrs. Carter Tour! :)

  7. We are exactly the same. If I am mad, you will know. Other emotions like love, I guard with my life but the older I get, the softer my heart gets. To quote Paulo Coelho, “Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself.”

    I cried through the Grammy’s because I realized that music is a way for the soul to express itself when it does not have its own words. The only time I am not listening to music these days is when I am sleeping.

  8. I absolutely know what u mean. . . i’m doing it the same way!! *high-five*

    When i’m an angry or just annoyed about something i am listenin to melodic hardcore, like Being as an Ocean. I’m using my awesome headphones to let other people know “Do not talk or even look at me!” when i’m in the train or bus ;-)

    For happy moments i like nice ‘n swingy Folk-music, like Mumford & Sons, The Lumineers, fast n kinda deep german music from Bakkushan or the good old guys from Paramore.

    And when i’m in a really sad mood, i prefer slow/melancholic songs (Daughter, The Lumineers, Boyce Avenue as well).

  9. Girl you just said it all! I’m totaly the same way.
    I have so many songs that I can listen to over and over again..
    For sad moments: Fix You by Coldplay, Let it Be by the Beatles
    For happy/feeling good moments: Happy by Squareheads and Feel So Close by Calvin Harris..

    I have sooo many more songs.. Share yours with us :)