I Love You, Regina SpektorHeather Taylor

There’s something about Regina Spektor that I can never quite put my finger on. Hers is a voice that could stop me completely dead whenever or wherever I hear it. Could be a grocery store, a restaurant, or even just listening on my iPod but she always commands my full attention. And yet I feel like for as much as I know and love her songs, I don’t know much about her as a person. I don’t see her lighting up the cover of Glamour magazine or talking to US Weekly about her favorite hair products. In some ways, I like this about her. In others I don’t.

It seems to me that whenever life is getting difficult to deal with, I always get “saved” in the form of a good song or musician. There’s always a song that knows exactly what I’m going through and for a moment, for a couple of minutes, I can listen to it and feel the world I’m in slip away from me. ‘Human of the Year’ was a track on Regina’s Far album that I used to skip over to get to ‘Dance Anthems of the ’80s’ but for whatever reason a couple of weeks ago I put it on and listened to it once through. Then I put it on repeat and repeat and repeat some more. A funny thing happened. Somewhere along the 2:30 point, the tempo changed, the piano keys got stronger, and Regina’s voice got higher but stayed steady all at once. And then it breaks off into her whisper singing “hallelujah” after that tremendous forty seconds and it is all I can do not to cry. In fact, I didn’t even try to keep the tears away. They just poured down my face and I had to clap my hand to my mouth to be as quiet as possible so my roommates didn’t hear me weeping over a song. I wouldn’t be ashamed. It’s just been a very long time since I last cried over music and for that moment in my life when everything was changing it was the perfect accompaniment.

When I listen to Regina, both new and old albums of hers, I experience every emotion in the human emotional range you can think of. I smile to myself and laugh quietly. I take whatever upset I have and let it fall away with her voice like something I might have dreamed of once come to life. I try to analyze the lyrics and get confused. I get very philosophical, sometimes in that unnerving way that post-college students can get when they think they’ve figured out the world if they’ve done well or feel already lost even though they aren’t but really they don’t realize that all they had was just dumb luck guiding them along life. And also philosophical in a future tense, where I think about work and life and how none of it matters but then it does and it feels important to a point and that point is usually the moment that you quit caring.

Sometimes I get hungry too when I listen to Regina. Food hungry. ‘Eet’ is my ultimate dinner party song that I hope to play in the future when I have my very own apartment in a city like San Francisco or London. I have an entire fantasy sequence mapped out around ‘Eet’. Her songs do that to you. They make you see some sort of invisible future for yourself as well as a visible past and present. There’s just so much feeling packed in every chord, every note and every word. She keeps me sane, even when I’m just fine. And even though I do have many female artists I hold dear to my heart, Regina is in a category of her own.

And I’m happy to have her there. I’ll always keep her as close as possible.

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  1. My bro-in-law introduced me to her a few years back…her current CD is in the player in my car. I’d type more but it’s time to take a drive and listen to some Regina :)comment

  2. I feel exactly the same when I hear her music. Amazing article.

  3. I LOVE her.

  4. One of the only real musicians out there…

  5. This brilliantly conveys what everybody feels when listening to Regina. She is an all-around amazing artist. I like that she is free from the scrutinizing public eye, and she lets her voice echo from the depths of her whereabouts. She just has this stunning ability to write the purest of melodies…my favorite artist indeed!

  6. I have definitely experienced the “repeat only” with “Human of the Year” for like the last……..6 months

  7. I love Regina Spektor! She’s definitely one of my favorite artists (of all time). Thanks for the awesome post :)

  8. Regina Spektor is just AWESOME. She really has talent, her voice is stunning and she’s ultra cute.

  9. Her voice is truly amazing. “Us” breaks my heart.

  10. What I love about her music is how I can dislike a song one day, and absolute love it the other. I also like how she seems to sing little stories.

  11. I love her so and would really like to see her live. Her song with Ben Folds is on constant repeat and I have HAVE to hear it once a day or I feel off track.

    Anonymous | 10/27/2011 11:10 am
  12. I LOVE Regina Spektor! Seeing her live was amazing, believe it or not she sounds even better live so see her if you can. She can do no wrong.

  13. *song.

  14. Seeing her in concert was an example of raw, beautiful talent-she’s fantastic. Her son Somedays is beautiful and heartbreaking, I love it. :)

  15. Hermosa completamente :D

  16. Her voice is lovely. I think musicians like her and Ingrid Michaelson are phenomenal and because they are not all over gossip magazines, it makes them even more appreciated.

  17. I could listen to “Baobabs” every single day. I know what you mean about songs creating a future; I feel like that song is a thread that will stretch forward through my whole life. Also, it’s full of references to the Little Prince, which told me everything I needed to know about love and life.

  18. Regina Spektor is absolutely lovely! I’ve seen her live a few years ago and she was breathtaking and absolutely charming. A lot of her songs tend to bring me to tears, particularly her one song, ‘Loveology’. And there’s not even a studio version (which I think I prefer.) It’s always great to find others who enjoy her music.

  19. Every few months I have an anxiety attack do I made a playlist of songs that calm me down. Hotel Song is the very first song on that playlist. I don’t know why it takes me out of my state but I think it has more to do with the melody and her voice than the lyrics.

  20. Laughing With is the song I love the most from that album. Her voice is just enchanting.