Cindy - so glad that you're friend is making positive choices!
As to the relationship thing, I'm of no use. When relationships start getting more intense for me, I generally cut and run because I'm petrified of telling guys about my bipolar disorder. It sounds like you like this guy, right? Does your anxiety go into overload because you're scared of your feelings for him or that the relationship might actually work? Or is the anxiety from the fact that you just don't like him "that way?"
Elizabeth - I hear you about not regretting your decisions because you needed to learn from them, but I'm quite a bit older than you, so I feel like I didn't have time to make these bad decisions and I have a lot of regret. I'm working on being okay with what happened and looking towards the future while living in the present, but it's really hard.
And I do not want to be a rose.
I do not wish to be pale pink,
but flower scarlet, flower gold.
And have no thorns to distance me,
but be bright,
bright as yellow,
warm as yellow.
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