cindypark26 wrote:It was hard to convince her to take the medicine, since the SSRI she was on messed her up so much. But I'm pretty sure she knows that she needs to listen to her new doctor and that this medicine will help. I'm going to give her your advice on school because she has been pushing to leave home and go back to an out of state college pretty quickly. I just know if she goes back to soon, she's not going to be in a healthy, stable environment.
Thanks for your advice : )
Well here's what I did...
In my second semester away at school in Illinois, I took myself off my meds for reasons I don't even remember and I stopped going to class and it all became too much and I overdosed. I spent that spring break in the psych ward back at home. After spring break, I went back to finish out the semester and try to pull things together the best I could, but academically, that semester was a waste. I came home for the summer and spent the entire time convincing myself and everyone else that I was okay to go back to school for the fall. So I went, but I had a really hard time with my classes. When I came home for winter break, I told my parents that I didn't think I should go back. They gave me the option of finishing out the year, which I really wanted to do because college was the only time in my life that I've ever actually had friends, but I just felt so guilty about wasting so much money. I took the next semester off, moved back into my parents' house, got a job, and started going to an intensive outpatient therapy program which met five days a week for three hours a day. They got me on the right meds, got me a great doctor and a great therapist, and really changed my life. I worked a lot that summer and I decided that I'd take a year and go to community college part time and work part time and then see what I wanted to do. So I did that and did really, really well academically and got a great promotion at my job. This semester, I transferred again to a school that's half an hour from my house, but I'm living by myself in on-campus housing because I don't have a car so I can't commute. I'm in classes full time and it's been difficult but I'm getting the right kind of results.
What I'm trying to say is that I don't want anyone to ever have to go through what I felt when I went back to school out of state before I was ready to. I'm doing well now, I dug myself out, but it was hard work and really expensive.
And thanks for the advice about the anger! It didn't happen today, which I'm pretty excited about!
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