onsilver_stars wrote:I was wondering, for those of you posting here who are bipolar, what your onset was like? I have been diagnosed with GAD, OCD and depression, and when I was put on Prozac my psychiatrist told me that I needed to be very careful because I was showing signs of possible bipolar symptoms and family history showed that I should be conscious of my moods. I stopped taking medication because I didn't like how I felt on it, but her words have been haunting and I'm constantly nervous that every episode I have is more than a mood swing. If this is too personal/an inappropriate question, I apologize, it's just something I wonder about a lot.
I, too, have a family history of bipolar disorder so when I first saw a psychiatrist when I was 17 due to depression, she warned me that what seemed like unipolar depression may actually be a depressive episode of bipolar disorder. Despite taking Paxil throughout college, I still had depression and, in retrospect, very minor hypomanias. The hypomanic episode that got me a true diagnosis and got me put on a mood stabilizer was pretty insane. My thoughts were racing so quickly that the only time I could keep up with them was when I was exercising - which I did for about 4 hours a day. I couldn't sleep, but I didn't feel tired. I was agitated and had an increase in sexual activities (I did things that I NEVER would have done if I'd been stable). I was pretty out of control. I was 21 when this happened.
I understand that you may not have liked the way you felt on meds, but it's really, REALLY important that you talk with your psychiatrist before discontinuing any. If you are concerned, I would get an appointment with your psychiatrist or with a therapist. There is a huge difference in the treatment of unipolar depression and bipolar disorder as the medications for depression can worsen bipolar disorder.
Hope that helps...
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