elizabethlsiegel wrote:Yes. I will let you guys know the next time I have a meltdown.
brightasyellow wrote:Full disclosure - I have bipolar disorder. That may scare you off, but whatever. I'm trying to fight the stigma! I had to check into the hospital this summer after dealing with instability for two years. I had to move from LA to DC to live with my mom. And I'm now in recovery, just trying to be patient and let myself heal. I find that communicating with anyone who's dealt with mood disorders is very helpful.
So, you guys frightened yet?
brightasyellow wrote:Franny - I'm so glad to know I'm not alone. While I've been diagnosed with Bipolar Type 2, my hypomanias come very close to full-blown mania, but without the psychosis. I was in the hospital for the first time this summer for two weeks, followed by four weeks in an 8 hour a day partial program and am now living with my mom, unemployed, and just trying to get better. It's hard because it's an "invisible" illness so other people are like "why don't you have a job?" I tried to make it through the last two years, but I hit a wall this summer where the suicidal ideation was constant. I'm also doing a workbook to help me recognize the early warning signs of both mania and depression. For me, it's easy to recognize the depression because I've had more episodes of that than of mania, but I have a really hard time recognizing the beginnings of the mania. It's been 2.5 months since I've been out of the hospital and I'm getting impatient. I'm also so aware of every single mood change and am questioning them.
I'm so sorry that you've had to deal with this (as well as your twin), but I agree that living with this has helped to make me more tolerant of others as well as gaining more insight into who I am as a person. Although I gotta admit that I'd rather not have it.
I'm glad that your suicide attempt was unsuccessful. You seem to be a great person.
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